The CORE forum sent me a happy birthday, triggering a thought to check up on the offroad local community.
Since my last post a year ago. Robyn has had 9 additional procedures. The last one was mid November. The titanium rod was removed from her femur because the bone was not union-ing. The two ends of the bone were shaved flat and a stainless steel L-bracket was installed pinching them together. She is currently non-weight baring for another two months.
After being on an assorted amount of pain pills she has almost completely come off of the morphine. Just in time to begin physical therapy. Not sure why they planned that schedule but we are just rolling with it for now. Pain clinics now are just legal pill pushers just walking into one of the facilities one can tell there are a lot of people who do not need to be there. (I am by no means suggesting all of them.)
Robyn has one paralyzed vocal cord and the other is covered in scare tissue. This limits here total air in take. So she is often out of breath just talking. Eating is a problem as she has a concern of aspirating some of the food. And She can not lay flat without feeling like she is choking.
My employer has been extremely accommodating allowing me to work whatever schedule suits me some days I'll work 1st shift the next I might work 3rd. As long as I clock in for 40 hours they don't care when I'm here. Bills have piled up and I can't afford to be off work at all. We are slowly trimming them down. However; changing to a single income family has been an eye opener. January is right around the corner and I'll meet my deductible in less than two weeks.
I'm not shirking any of my responsibility but some of these collectors are going to be receiving $10 a month for the next 10 years.
Myself, I'm just exhausted and have not been taking care of myself. Drinking too much trying to forget and smoking cigarettes too much to have an excuse to leave the house. I woke up this morning decided I needed to change that. I'm not quite certain how yet. I've made work my escape and tend to stay 50-60 hours a week just so I don't have to go home.
UGG that was depressing. All-in-all we are doing better. We do know she will have more surgeries on her throat. And some the scares are starting to fade. Emotionally we both just need a vacation.
Thank you for your thoughts, have a Merry Christmas, hug your loved ones. In an instant your life can be turned upside down. Righting it again is a long trying road.
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